Secret Beasts

by Clara Engel

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1.
greyhound station i feel like a ghost rootless desire and dirty clothes i'm lost in the stillness i've spoken to no one for days break in the sun til the sun breaks down i sold my eyes to a black market clown the earth she is screaming a new plague is dreaming of hosts o these bonds of love bruised body sea of blood bedtime stories a mother's love the wolves are coming my door doesn't shut break in the sun til the sun breaks down break in the sun til the sun breaks down break in the sun til the sun breaks down
2.
Ghost Opera 05:22
cobra flower bowl of ether patriot birds writhe in frigid air blind albino monkeys fishing by a winter sea they sing like ghouls cave angel songs cobra flower bowl of ether jackdaws and crows are tangled in your hair pulse in your pocket your hot blood money lets get out of these dead clothes lets get inside faithful lies keep love alive faithful lies keep love alive bruised place is speechless hipless breastless faceless ghost opera ringing in my eyes and lighting torches down my spine faithful lies keep love alive...
3.
the beauty of your design brilliant light extinguish the mind sew needles through the eyes i'll fashion you dreams to fill up the night all your memories are mine like frozen bodies of butterflies one day i'll let them fly into the dark the hinges of your lovely spine must be oiled from time to time i promise not to leave you out in the garden when it rains i don't long for anything but when i look at you i dream of every past i've ever invented when time cracks this frail design gather me up love i'm going blind and you can leave me out in the garden
4.
I don't want mercy to be mild I want mercy to defile The one that cuts my roses down Is the one that I'm loving I don't want mercy to be sweet I want the sting of your deceit The one that drags my pride on its knees Is the one that I'm loving I don't want mercy to be kind I want the dregs, the bones, the rind Sour apple, kiss of spite I want to regret you All I want tonight Is to be without Is to be let out
5.
I want to dress you up I want to take you out I want to show you off O my old fashioned love O my old fashioned love... I want to take you on up against that cold brick wall I want to feel you up O my old fashioned love
6.
Madagascar 04:59
an angel from madagascar picked me up in a motorcar we filled our bodies up with stars now we're iridescent in the dark now our mothers don't know who we are but i love my angel from madagascar an angel from the slums of tangiers whispered a rancid lovesong in my ears and filled my memory up with her tears an angel from a dead sea dawn lashed my skin with a branch of palm and told me to love isn't just to disarm you could take me down with one touch of your scorn your kiss like a whip your caress full of thorns desire desirous pleasure that tears itself apart an angel from madagascar picked me up in a motorcar we got drunk in the moonlight threw knives, and bloodied the stars it was fun, i'd do it again but that night it rained i caught a fever and died night swallowed me up and when i opened my eyes it was all a dream but there's a star in the palm of my eye so take me down with one touch of your scorn your kiss like a whip your caress full of thorns desire desirous pleasure that tears itself apart an angel from madagascar picked me up in a motorcar we filled our bodies up with stars now we're iridescent in the dark now our mothers don't know who we are but i love my angel from madagascar
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i cannot douse my words in flame or fasten them with wings and chains so i have no words for you so i have no words i cannot rip them at the seam make them weaken, turn pale, and bleed so i have no words for you so i have no words i can't make them archers in your sky to pierce the marrow of your mind's eye so i have no word for you so i have no words if i could douse my words in flame i'd make a bonfire of the worlds i name i'd make a bonfire of the stakes i claim i'd melt down this mirror and then i'd come clean see how this silence is wounding me but i have no words i have no words my words are stones cast into the sea the sun beats down dispassionately everything is still beneath and i have no words
8.
Not My Child 04:16
you are not my child i can't protect you i know you'll run so wild and i'll have to let you if i burdened you know that i never meant to bind or tie you down and i've cut every ribbon now i know i'd let you drown if i swam to meet you the tide is rising now and i'll have to let you go
9.
Lick My Fins 04:30
let the holy spirit lick my fins i want to crawl back to the ocean for you lose my limbs and my lungs my agility of tongue for you i want to crawl back to the ocean for you there are ways and ways and ways and ways to win but i can kill that very notion if my losing delights you if my losing excites you
10.
angelus bells hover over your eyes tidal wash wrecks a bright city night as your light comes in from passage dark and deep where have you been? where have you been? angelus bells kiss our loved ones goodnight as we fall through the silver sieves in the sky there are whales and great birds petrified in the light bury the bones grant us strength to stay blind grant us strength to stay blind angelus bells hover over your eyes tidal wash wrecks a bright city night but morning has come you can open your eyes look to the sun all the roads s/he has cried follow one til you're blind
11.
Blind Me 07:15
blind me to what has seduced me hold me down as long as it takes for these shivers to subside for these illuminations to die for these scintillant onyx fires to blind me blind me to what has seduced me numb me to what i have touched i know that i got just what i asked for i didn't know that i'd asked for this much blind me to what has seduced me bind all my joys one by one shackle my blisses and burn them every bright feather returning to dust bloody echoes down the walls of these prisons of our bodies as wings torn from a dove fly on deep into the ether o lord how this house turns to dust bloody echoes down the walls of these prisons in your chest trapped a wounded dove always hungry for vengeance or for mercy always yearning to return to dust protect me from all my desire numb me to the one i love
12.
believe me if all your endearing young charms should change by tomorrow and fleet in my arms but no i can't strip the sun of its rays or you of your charms so let flesh dress my bones til i'm only bone then incinerate bone but let flesh dress my bones for now a shiver of a gong a voice shuddering apart i was dissolved in a lake it was bloody and it was hard and i cried for the lady in the moon for the monster who cut out my tongue for my mother and my father and the sun going down but let flesh dress my bones til i'm only bone then incinerate bone but let flesh dress my bones for now now we're on a ship and the machinery screams the captain says we're really going down i've gone deaf or i've fallen in love trouble begins with water and blood with sweat and seed and beads of broken light so many prisms so many spasms in this life we smash our bliss with hammers godhead swells my love is a chorus of murderous bells an army of unborn children to mourn i want to bury my teeth in a chamber in your heart i want it all i want to be forsaken i want to be set apart i want to be set free in a meadow of stars my love is a chorus of murderous bells... but the wind beats down my sails you're in the dirt under my nails autumn chokes summer and brother he does it well my love is a chorus of murderous bells believe me if all your endearing young charms should change by tomorrow and fleet in my arms but no i can't strip the sun of its rays or you of your charms
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“Clara Engel’s voice comes to me from that deepest of all places, imaginative space, from which she visually retrieves an inner landscape converted by breath into the rock equivalent of poetry. Rarely has a voice sounded so authoritative, so unapologetic in its disclosures, so sure of its direction in going home into song…I’d say ‘Madagascar’ beats them all, and it’s only a beginning at harnessing poetic inspiration to the resonating dynamic of voice and the lyrical ache of a great individual singer.”
-Jeremy Reed (poet)

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released December 3, 2009

All Songs Written By Clara Engel
except 'The Sailor's Choice' - Traditional, based on an arrangement by Jacob, aka Steven Calver

Clara Engel - Voice, Guitar, Piano
Nicolas Buligan - Horns, Percussion
Tilman Lewis - Cello, Percussion
Paul Kolinski - Drums, Percussion, Piano, Voice

Featuring Tsinder Ash on voice and clarinet on Old Fashioned Love

Choirs of friends.

Engineered & Mastered by Mike Kuehn
Mixed by Mike Kuehn, Alex Olsen, Clara Engel
Recorded live at Sleepytown Studio on the 1st weekend of January, 2009.

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